Hey.
I'm Samm.
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I just want the old Samm in me to come back to life. Optimistic, hopeful, and happy.

But no. I've become this angry hateful person who just wants karma to attack everyone. Though that would mean I'd probably be dead.

I'm tired of hurting, of waiting, of being sad.

I'm done. I'm done. Time to be happy, confident, and optimistic about the future. Things WILL get better.

I'll be in college in just a few months. I won't feel like a loser working full time living at home anymore.

THEN.

After college...

I'm out of Florida.

 I will be an adult in like 11 days.

... well I'll be 18. :]

I think I'm on the wrong side of this fucking looking-glass.

There is something I really want for my birthday.

I have two weeks left of school.

So just a warning:

I'll be a wreck for the next two weeks.

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I'm sorry, but I really don't mean to sound so sad all the time. I've just been really lonely. Everyone is so busy and I just want to be out all the time with you guys. I just always have to study and do HW to make sure I make it graduation. I also live in Longwood, that's a big problem.

I make up silly excuses to talk to people on the phone. Just to hear people's voices sometimes. The second I hang up I feel like an idiot, because... I'm not even sure. I just wish i hadn't called and sounded like an emo bitch. I know it annoys people.

After graduation I'll feel better. Once there is no more school, it'll get easier.

WOULD ONE OF YOU COME AND FUCKING VISIT ME FOR ONCE.

I FIND A WAY TO ORLANDO EVERY WEEKEND.

ONE OF YOU COME HERE!

I just want someone to visit me this week, instead of waiting until the weekend to see people.

I don't want to sleep alone tonight.

Yesterday I was really happy.

But now I am back to feeling lost and unwanted.

Feels like I'm just THERE.

Nothing significant to anybody.

Just Samm.

I can't believe I am updating this. I bet Shannon will be happy to see me back on here ;)

So what has been happening in the life of Samm?

I'm in my senior year of high school, and I'm scared. I have to worry about college and shit soon :(

Everything besides that is pretty good. I'm doing pretty well in school, and I have an awesome girlfriend now. Someone I don't feel scared to act myself around. It's pretty great! <3

uhmmm. Yeah That is really all I have to update on.

I know.. not much.